ChubbyChubbs

you know what’s sad? being 20 years old and not being satisfied with life. not life itself, but what i have done within my 20 years of living. to put it even simpler, i’m really bored with where i am in life. i’m a 20 year old student working on my BSN. am i enjoying it? not really. i feel like there’s nothing that interests me at the moment. work? working a yogurt place isn’t exactly where I want to be right now. I want to be working in a damn hospital already. I want to be somewhere where it can actually benefits me. rights now, its as if .. as if im just bored. bored of houston. i have no motivation to push me to do anything right now, not even the gym (and thats pretty big considering the gym is like a second home to me). i have completely lost my motivation to work. there’s only a handful, most likely less, of things that is just keeping me going at the moment. pretty much, i’m just stuck right now. stuck in life and just going with the flow at the moment. I feel like i dont have enough fun, dont do enough, and sometimes even do too much. I do too much and too little for both other people and myself. just letting a few things out at the moment. i guess this is something only i will understand.